43-reality check.

The knee still hurts. It hurts bad. However, I've learned that I can take the pain. I've decided to remove my "ban" of certain moves in the workouts and will go back to doing them they way they were intended. It hurts, yes, it does, but the knee isn't weak, just in pain. I'm hoping the pain is temporary, because I'm not going to allow it to affect me any longer.  As a matter of fact, with the exception of follow ups when it comes to doctors, this will be the last time the knee is mentioned in this blog. I'm sick of it and I'm sure the few of you that read this are too.

I get asked all the time if I'm crazy. Not in a genuine insane asylum kind of way, but in the general way because of the way I do things. I don't have a filter from brain to mouth (or at least that's the rumor, I actually do, but I really don't believe in sugar coating things these days) I'm not intimidated by anyone regardless of their status, title or whatever they think makes them intimidating and I'm not afraid to tell anyone to "fuck off" whether figuratively or actually looking in their faces and telling them to fuck off. I've got a co-worker that thinks it's the best thing in the world and at least three times a week he posts things on facebook that have to do with me telling people to fuck off or saying that I'm an asshole and proud of it. I truthfully think that my brutal honesty is sometimes mistaken for being an asshole.  In today's world where everyone gets a trophy for participating, I just don't believe in that kind of crap. I still believe in separating the winners from the losers. I also don't really take a lot of shit from people, unless I know it will end up biting them in the end and they will end up screwing themselves without me having to do anything.

The point of all this is, I've tried to keep that brutal honesty off of teamddpyoga. I'm one of the first to go to someone's post and give a word of encouragement or a pat on the back. Which, I think is good. I think there are people out there that need that. I think it is what inspires them to keep going, "someone noticed me and said I was doing good, I'm gonna try even harder tomorrow." And that's great for them. But what about the "woe is me" people?  The ones who seem to have an excuse every day? I've had to log off of the page several times, especially in the last week or so, because there seems to be an influx of people with one excuse or another. What they're looking for is the pat on the back with someone saying "it's gonna be okay, you're still trying, you'll do better tomorrow." That's not really my style. And I don't think that's really what's effective in motivating someone, sometimes they just need some good God damned brutal honesty. The problem is, in today's world and especially with some folks fragile mental states, they can't take it.  They'll say they're being judged (of course you are, you are talking about everything you do on the internet and posting pictures about it, if you don't think you're going to be judge you're naive too) or that someone is being mean to them.  Honesty is not mean.  Honesty is the best thing you can do for someone. Honesty is what made you get off your ass and order the program.  Honesty is what made you take those six pictures.  Honesty is what made you do that first diamond dozen. Honesty with yourself. So why can't you take honesty from someone else?

Ah, I'm going off on a tangent here that probably spreads a lot further than just teamddpyoga. Sometimes I shoot off at the mouth (or in this case, fingers) and just keep going.  There's that "filter" I don't have.

But I can tell you this, if anyone who reads this blog that I put out daily and have for the last 43 days, catches me doing something I shouldn't or making excuses, I BEG you to call me out on it. You're not gonna get anything from me but a thank you. I weighed in at 225 today.  That's 27 pounds since day. 26 pounds away from my weight loss goal. So I'm over half way there.  And it's the honesty with myself that I've had on a daily basis that has gotten me there. And it will be that same honesty that will help me continue with my ongoing goals. Maybe there are a few of you out there that need a reality check. If I'm the one that gives it to you, I won't apologize for it, whether you thank me or not.